#748 Just How Conscious are We?

     Much of the time, we're in one of two "doing" modes: either "mindless" or more or less "focused." And when we actually experience "non-doing", we may find it baffling & confusing.

      Very common examples of mindless doing (acting on autopilot, with a wandering mind) include arriving somewhere & realizing we have no recollection of the details of actually driving (or walking) there. Conscious awareness was far from the here & now, busy with daydreaming, planning, worrying, regretting etc. 
     A relatively new & increasingly common practice is exercising while simultaneously listening to podcasts. 
     Whether our untrained mind simply gets lost, or we intentionally choose "a divided life" instead of engaging with the present moment, we're undermining both quality of life & effectiveness. A wandering mind = a divided mind = unhappiness & inefficiency. See: Killingsworth MA, Gilbert DT. “A wandering mind is an unhappy mind.” Science 2010; 330(6006): 932.

     Many times we're more or less "focused" while doing, but we're paying way too much fear-based attention on the doer. The "noisy ego" is kicking up all sorts of friction & noise. Have you ever seen a little kid at his first track & field event, pouring all his energy into showing his parents how hard he's trying to run - grimacing, exaggerated body movements, groaning, gasping - so that minimal actual energy remains for actual running - a great example of ego noise. The extreme opposite is a world-class 100-yard-dash runner whose face & upper body appear silent & still yet she hurtles forward at record-breaking speed. No energy is wasted on (fearfully protecting) "I, me & mine." 
     It's unimaginable what a wonderful world we'd have if we pooled our combined energies & talents and did what's needed, instead of acting out of fearful self-interest.

     "Non-doing" is action marked by effortlessness, silence, stillness, calm, peace, timelessness, very bright & vivid awareness, no egocentricity / "I" am doing this. Action is extremely efficient & feels effortless, even when there's life-threatening danger. This may explain why "heroes" when interviewed afterwards typically downplay the event, & are very reluctant to accept credit for "their" behavior. Other fascinating examples of non-doing is found in the world of creativity among physicists, composers & song-writers. The best of them typically claim that the discovery or music, even entire symphonies for Mozart, came to them all at once, and they just quickly copied it down. Again note the effortlessness, timelessness, vivid awareness, & no sense that "I" did this. The late rock & roll star Tom Petty described his song-writing process using very similar language: "Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers: Running Down A Dream” 2007 Bogdanovich film on Netflix.)

     "Doing" mode is prioritizing our own needs instead of what present circumstances actually require, for our own & others' long-term benefit. To the extent that our past influences (colors, biases, distorts) our perception, our past needs ("must haves" & "must avoids") determine how we act now, regardless of what's most appropriate right here, right now. At some level, we are aware of this inner conflict (friction, noise, cognitive dissonance, "divided-self"). 
     Sadly, fear-based self-interest (which includes tribalism, partisanship etc) is caused by our understandable need for safety, comfort, predictability & control in today's increasingly stressful, unsafe world. YET, our world is becoming increasingly frightening & dangerous BECAUSE of escalating fear-based self-interest (tribalism, partisanship, nationalism, intolerance, hatreds, warmongering ...). See the excellent book review: Julie Wronski. "Intergroup Identities, Moral Foundations, and Their Political Consequences: A Review of Social Psychology of Political Polarization by Piercarlo Valdesolo and Jesse Graham (Eds)." Soc Just Res (2016) 29:345–353.

     Deep self-reflection during meditation practice allows us to become increasingly aware of our own mind's unconscious primitive survival patterns of thinking (& ensuing behavior), some of which is delusional, illusory, and even work against our own & everyone else's best interests. An exceptionally useful book that carefully examines our thinking & behavior from the perspective of evolutionary psychology is: Robert Wright. "Why Buddhism is True: The Science and Philosophy of Meditation and Enlightenment." Simon & Schuster, 2017.

Katie Hoffman      "Petrichor"      www.katiehoffman.com

#513 Well-worn Grooves & New Perspectives

     At some point, we recognize that we're "creatures of habit". Of course those who know us, are well aware of our patterns of speech & behavior. We tend to react in a typical, fairly predictable fashion, to many situations. It's as if the infinite numbers & varieties of stimuli that we perceive from outside & inside our skin boundary could only "push" one of a small number of possible "buttons".
     The instant we become aware of the repetitive pattern of our thoughts, speech or behavior, we become conscious or mindful - no longer fused with, or trapped in "the momentum of our life". But it's very common and seductively easy to remain in a trance- or dream-like momentum. Even those who have some knowledge of mindfulness retain a strong emotional bias towards leaving their lives, warts & all, in the same old well-worn groove. They strongly resist shifting to greater consciousness. This is VERY similar to a sleepy, grumpy person being unhappy that it's time to wake up, get out of bed, & face the new day. They do not appreciate attempts, no matter how gentle or well-intentioned, to get them up.
     To the extent that we identify with the part of us that is in that sleepy, semi-conscious dream state, we resist change ie resist waking up. Filling life with distractions & addictions helps keep us asleep & keeps our attention away from the sad fact that we're living "a life unexamined".
     If we learn to be our own excellent sports psychologist, life coach & trainer, we can live a progressively more conscious, evolved quality of life. To the extent that we get fed up with sleeping our life away, we intentionally, progressively wake up. This is why we participate in mindfulness training.

     Below is a very good, recent overview of mindfulness by Jon Kabat-Zinn speaking in London.

#511 Who Am I - Right Now?

     As soon as I pause to consider "Who am I?", I'm immediately being mindful - a feature of the wise adult operating system (WAOS) - see yesterday's post. Perspective, awareness of how things interconnect, how everything is interdependent, how every thought, word & action has immediate local as well as long-term distant effects are important components of wisdom. Behavior that arises from this place of relative stillness tends to be appropriate, kind, and serves the long-term welfare of many.
     But when I'm "driven" to think, speak & act by unexamined energies, short-term gain for my ego is almost invariably the driver, the source of the energy. And long-term pain is very likely the result, for myself, others & the environment. Feeling "energized" to do something should always be carefully examined rather than quickly acted out. Reasonable courses of action seldom come attached to a brief rush of emotion. Behind energized zeal, there is often aversion, anger, hatred, and ultimately, fear - the fearful child operating system (FCOS) actually driving the whole sorry misadventure.
     "Who am I?" is such a critical question to ask oneself, very often, since we make important, life-changing choices moment-by-moment. EVERYTHING depends on the OS that's functioning - who we are - scared child OR wise adult - who do I want running my life? Please also read: http://www.johnlovas.com/2014/03/power-its-origin-how-to-use-it.html

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